My husband read my last post and said it was sad.
Y'all. I'm not sad. I just wanted to explain why I have been quiet. And to let you know that I understand that sometimes life is not so very much fun.
Why do we listen to the lie that life is supposed to be perfect and good things always happen and if we just work hard enough and long enough things will turn out as we planned?
Life maybe didn't go the way I planned, but it has turned out just how The Lord planned.
I want to share a few things that have given me life and hope and joy.
Obviously, Jesus. Always. The Word...His Words...that you've hidden in your heart will be there when you don't know what to pray and when you don't even want to pray. I cannot even tell you how many nights I've gone to sleep meditating on scripture that I didn't even know I knew.
Counseling. Y'all. It's for real. I think it is the best thing I have ever done for myself. It feels luxurious to be able to talk about yourself and your thoughts and feelings to someone who has to listen to you.
Rest. I have stepped out of a lot of things so that I could be quiet and rest. And I don't feel guilty about it at all. Welcome to your 40s, girls.
Books. I have read a ridiculous amount of books. I'll tell you more about some of my favorites later. But you need to go right now and check out this book. I have read it 3 times.
Walking. There is something so therapeutic about getting outside and breathing fresh air and sweating. I always feel better.
Food. Just paying attention to what I eat and how it makes me feel.
An Occasional Netflix Binge. Sometimes you just have to know when to shut it all down.
Your People. Find the few people who can handle your stuff. And then listen more than you talk. Being a good friend to someone else will make you feel so much better than monopolizing the relationship to be all about your mess.
That's it for now. Those are all obvious things, but they have kept me going. And let me say again. I am not sad. I am happy. But more than just being happy, I am at peace and have joy and hope.
And that is my prayer for you.